August 3, 2020
Happy birthday and happy anniversary
To my dearest most special Tommy ... Husband. Lover. Best friend. Exercise pal. Book pal. France pal. Yard pal. And and and ...
I love you.
And I'm so sorry for what I've become. Chat with counselor today. More and more understanding of how fucked up I was in my youth and how it affects today and and and ...
Nothing new. Nothing special.
But I don't want you to leave me. And I don't plan on leaving you through any manner.
I'd go to a depression program at Butler [mental hospital] before I'd leave you.
Do you realize how special you are? From your silliness to your head petting to your reminding us to meditate and exercise.
My pride in you and me for the work we've done for the philanthropic sector. My pride in your book about your dad and the war and ...
My respect for you.
My happiness that you love France so much. The kindness you gave Grandma Jane. Your fun with other members of my family.
Together.
You and me.
I love you.